Lately,
I've felt judged.
Yes,
I am a “helicopter parent”. Better a helicopter parent, than a
dead child, maimed child or raped child, what say?
"Benign neglect". Hmmmmmmm. Let's see. I'm a product of that. How did I fare? The children of "pushy parents" from when I was a kid have by now established a world for themselves. While I, of intelligence without ambition (which, by the way, is like a bird without wings, did You know?) am still "in process" ... So, no. I do not buy this one either.
Yes, it's true that "parenting" is a new word. It did not exist before our generation. But how about us? Do we exist in our generation? Or before our generation? Last I know, the "Ancient Indians knew Time-travel"- machine had not yet been dug up from our stupendous past! & even if it had been, I'm not much a fan of being a child bride, a 3rd wife , a Sati ...
No, thank you. I am gonna live in this generation. & I'm gonna prepare my child for what is my assumption of the coming generation.I do not KNOW what it will be, I am not Alvin Tofler, am I?
"Benign neglect". Hmmmmmmm. Let's see. I'm a product of that. How did I fare? The children of "pushy parents" from when I was a kid have by now established a world for themselves. While I, of intelligence without ambition (which, by the way, is like a bird without wings, did You know?) am still "in process" ... So, no. I do not buy this one either.
Yes, it's true that "parenting" is a new word. It did not exist before our generation. But how about us? Do we exist in our generation? Or before our generation? Last I know, the "Ancient Indians knew Time-travel"- machine had not yet been dug up from our stupendous past! & even if it had been, I'm not much a fan of being a child bride, a 3rd wife , a Sati ...
No, thank you. I am gonna live in this generation. & I'm gonna prepare my child for what is my assumption of the coming generation.I do not KNOW what it will be, I am not Alvin Tofler, am I?
All
around, I felt judged. Which was weird. Because, I have a very, (VERY), co-operating
husband, awesome in-laws, amazing parents, incredibly cool
colleagues(touchwood), friends when I need them! (actually, touchwood
all around!!!) So who the hell is judging me? Why do I feel
constantly judged? It's an uneasy feeling, which brings out the
“rebel-without-a-cause” in me!!!
Beauty
& harmony. Let go. Transcendence. ... advice, &
preachvertisements. Analogies, & allegories. True stories, &
ancient fables. To help me be “a better me”. Why? Do you ever
stop & reflect? Why do random strangers need me to be a better
me? Why am I not enough? Why all this “lifestyle education”?
After
puzzling for a long time, I realized that !!!!!! Yesssssss!!! (Read
the title to this write-up!) Keep it coming, guys & babes! Daadis
& Taus!! Self-styled spiritual gurus & one-book
psychoanalysts!!! Now that I know WHO I am facing, I am prepared. I
need to have my financial independence. I also need “Mumma-baby time”,
“couple-time”, time for the needs of the 2
sides of my family, & then, yes, I need some “me-time”, some crafting, some activism.
A spic-n-span house ? ? ??? It's a luxury for "other people. An uncluttered Zen mind-space? ..... Umm! It's me you're talking to?
In my me-time I read & re-read Agatha Christie. THAT is my meditation.
A spic-n-span house ? ? ??? It's a luxury for "other people. An uncluttered Zen mind-space? ..... Umm! It's me you're talking to?
In my me-time I read & re-read Agatha Christie. THAT is my meditation.
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